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The BEPC is not necessary to go to highschool. You can fail it and go to highschool anyway. BUT... The better you generally progressed during grade 9, and the marks you obtain, by yourself then, while one exam, is decisive to go the highschool of your choice, and study what you want, and the level you want. So very important for their future.

I have a student who lacks self-confidence, extremely. And I've tried a global approach, to go to important points, but  she's too panicked in front of her sheet. Blank exam: 5/40 at math (and I haven't seen the rest yet). With what she knew, to me it was 20 or 25/40. She cannot organize her time when she's in front of her sheet, that's the main problem. I saw what she did. She doesn't finish stuff she  knows, because she spends too much time panicking on things she doesn't know. This is how I proceed:

I read one question entirely, and I take my time to really know what I have to do, and what way my analysis will go. Which means, if I have question 1) a) b) c) d), I don't only read a) and do it, I read all. It's a gain of time.

I do first what I know.

Even if I don't know all the way to the result, I write what I know of the reasoning, it counts.

No need to answer what you're not asked, or more than what you're asked.

And instead of revising like crazy, and not sleeping, and not eating, two days before, you relax, sleep well, eat well. While an exam, you're supposed to give the max focus in a quite short time. Without sleep or your stomach screaming, it's not optimum. No alcohol. Go for a walk, watch your fave movie.

People wonder why i'm cool while an exam. No mystery.

2h for math. If you do that, the two first steps usually take 30 min/1h, unless you know all perfectly (some do). That leaves you one hour to quietly think about what you don't know (not sure of, needing more thinking), and make it clean. It's really enough not to stress.

First reaction: I'm giving up on math, and will base everything on literature and history/geography (what she can't afford). In any case, even if you can afford it, wrong reaction. Math are one easy way (at that level), to gain points, like dictation. Just with the courses, it's nearly half of the points. And when you really know your courses, thinking is easier, even when you're late on the program. Master the courses. I'll make sure of that. Less stress then already. Plus exercices, a lot, to grab the main way to analyze. It's not the solution in details, but allows to solve most of exercises. It's not math sup, it's easy simple math, the ways are the same.

So I told her, because I believe she needs to be over-prepared, it's her style, that we'll revise evrything, chapter by chapter (linear), and do lots of exercises for each (automatic solving thinking).

Same problem with Literature and History... it's the analysis that don't work. The courses, she knows them. But she can't manipulate them in situation, analyze a text, or a visual document. That will more difficult than math.

With a bit of organization, I'm pretty sure she can obtain, maybe not summa cum laude, but cum laude. Even if it's 12 and some peanuts/20. And psychologically for her, it will make a certain difference.

I see now, some tests she does, at school (so on her own), she can have 13 or 14/20. She's capable to have cum laude. And when the highschool of her choice will see that, and the progress, they will say yes.

We have a bit more than one month, I think it's achievable. But I told her, it's doublle work by now. I asked her to re-work on history of arts (what we didn't have when I took that exam, we had math, literature/french, and history/geography). But not re-work stupidly. They have a board for it, of what is asked, on what they will be noted. It's a bit like knowing the questions of the exam before the exam. I told her it's a way to have a real high mark then. I gave her hint of what she missed, and to re-read what she did, and take notes of what she thinks is missing. It will be an oral. She had ha poetries to choose, and present to her class. I asked her to volunteer then (because there's the written part noted, not necessarily the oral). She had 15/20. That's a very good point. She's got to "master" (to a point) 2 books, 2 songs, and one poetry (of her choice, on the topic of her choice). It's basically two + 3 other documents of choice (poetry, song, drawing, painting...) WWII, the the jewish deported for her. Very interesting. When she wants she writes things that are important. It's easier for her with songs. Very irregular with books. Because she doesn't grab the concept, that is always the same. I told her USE your board, what they ask you. In fact, use anything you can. Oral exam? Sometimes they're not sure of your answer. Orally, you can come back, give details, grab information from what they ask more, the way it's asked (because if they ask, they have something in mind).

One month and one week. I really want her to succeed.  Not because I recognize myself in her, I don't. Not because I think she's the more brilliant ever, she' s not. But I see that she works, a lot actually. I don't need to push her, just give her some tips to manage it the best way possible. She deserves to make it. It's not put things in order, it's re-arranging the scheme. And I will do it also because I know we work well together. She told me something that encouraged me to "push it". That I don't critizise her. And I told her that it's specially not true, that I do it all the time. She said yeah, but you don't put me down. I don't see the interest. I'm quite critical, bad criticisms too, but for a positive result. Like, that is wrong, that is the way to progress on it. I don't scream either, I certainly don't say "what are we gonna do of you?". Show her her mistakes, but not to dwell on them, and move on quick. And we're in May, I think that finally she grabs THAT. She told me once, I work like crazy, I had 4/20. I wanted to cry. I told her, then cry, sit down, take a quarter, get it out, and then up, and one mark is not what you're worth at school, and even less as a person. And everything can be improved. Things aren't static.

And, personally, being a self-employed teacher, it's really better. No barriers anymore, I can adapt the knowledge to teach in function of what's needed, change strategy, go "out" of what's asked. I don't think it's stupid to ask my students to watch a movie, and just take notes on what they felt on a precise scene. What they think, and the meaning come then. It goes ten times faster than "traditional" stuff.

She doesn't think like me, doesn't have the same systems etc... But I was 16 too, and even being more cerebral, I remember pretty well how I took things more personally at that age. So about that "put down" thing, I wasn't really happy. And I think it's something she's still living. Her brother is like "I have an exam tomorrow, not revising, and aother 19/20 in my collection". Pressure for her, especially because her father is hard on her, very. He doesn't have the same pressure from their parents, no comparison as he was the first, so he's more relaxed, and more relaxed by nature already. But they're different. He works at what's useful, she works at the affect. But I believe it's not only about intellectual abilities. Intellectual abilities allow you to be good without doing nothing, what makes him lazy, and me at the same age. It took me time to understand than that, if you add interest, and more passion, makes you excellent only. The affect might be even more important to cerebral people. And I've seen students, average, in their capacities, with passion, becoming excellent.



I have also have another kid. He's brilliant actually, more than I was then. He's got a capacity to understand things very quickly that is sometimes beyond my comprehension. But he works globally, on metaphors and all like I do, so it goes faster. However, he's very irregular. It can be 19/20, and then 3/20. Even if he understood what was asked, and knew what to do, he just didn't wanna do it, at that moment. I didn't tell him what a waste it is, or... I don't know what motivates him after all. I just proposed him a regular way to work. He said sometimes he just wants to go out and run. I said then do it, and then go back to what you did. His results are more regular. And actually quite high. If he takes  in account what I told him, it will be really upper summa cum laude for him.

I learn a lot to adapt with humans here. It doesn't mean adapt myself, and lie to them. It means find the best way for them, so I have to adapt my teaching. I learn a lot on humans. What is not my strong point that close. A very interesting, and probably good experience.

Even if I earn more money, or have enough money, to study as a vet assistant (to become a vet as a goal), I might do that, teach that way, longer. I'm sure that will be great for me, intellectually, as a person, and maybe emotionally what is the more difficult to externalize for me. And I think "pushing" them to "excellency" (in function of their abilities, their lives, what they want), isn't bad. I don't pressure them, I just show them all the possibilties they have. They choose then.

Stimulating, challenging.

 

 


I remember my mother had a voice closer to her's, but she preferred the Gounod one, here we go, with Jessye Norman, quite special voice.

 


And the pagan one, with Noa, who was Esmeralda, perfect in all for that role, With that slight accent she's got, replaced by Helene Segara, less good (my opinion). I went to see Notre dame de Paris, because of a friend of mine who could find tickets. The more difficult moments, dancing in the same time were Tina Arena then though. I really love the pagan one.

 

This is Noa

Yeah, and what about the BILLIONS Bush (and father) spent in WARS? You don't talk about that, nobody does. 100 billions? I guess with that there would be money for the Obamacare, schools, hospitals, and more. But nobody talks about that. Because people believe what they're told, you, too.
You don't vote, then why do you whine on anything?
Well, maybe if you voted, like many others who don't and come whine or rant, ther would be a total majority in chambers, and possible things to do.
We European aren't better. Have you what happens in England? It's not going better. Despise is the word. I saw people giving a hommage to Thatcher, nuts, filthy or hypocrites for humans. Thatcher... now they're even worse. America isn't only to blame, that is the one thing we agree with. We're all to blame, all of us who can, and don't.

Yeah, Clinton was great. His personal stuff weren't of interest. For your country, and our world. Hilary Clinton is brilliant, I believe so. No Bush had no great intentions. Benefits, profit, that's all, come on. It's not being of one party or another here. It's how bad things propagate. Junior is an idiot. Rotted, roasted, and other you want. There's nothing good in him. I'm not saying there's one human totally good, but some have good intentions, really. I've never really seen them doing "direct" politics though. Thery're more on the human side of it. But what else? It's the economy that should fit to us, not the contrary. We've evoluted in a mechanism that people believe the contrary. That we should adapt to economy. Economy is a way for us, it shoud be at least. The only thing we should adapt to is Nature, our environment. The only thing WE didn't create at all.
The Obamacare, is coming too late, that's why. It should have been done a long time ago. But at least, he cares (not the way you see it), he said, he did. I'm even surprised he could. The US is so, well, sorry but, selfish. It's been a very long while there hasn't been anyone to choose, really, anywhere, in long-time modern civilizations. Civilizations lol

Think straight, if they did, there was an interest, and knowing politics, and specially the conservatives, it wasn't free. Nothing is free in that world. They could, they did, some "humans" are so. If it really was about a real threaten, then following what is said, they would attack North Korea. But, wait, oh, it's really easier to attack one without weapons but one with them. Or why licking China's ass, if they didn't have so much power now (economical, and?)? Even though the people literally die of hunger or oppression and killings, not our business. The hell it is. They're people there, like you and me, who asked even less than we do, we, who live in a facade of peace. 9/11 was terrible, and I don't deny it, I saw it too! Live, even (not in NYC), but it changed things just because people were manipulated to think so. There've been things alike, worse, before, and after, that we don't know of, or so barely. It's a mirage. Politics know it, they use it. We're dumbs, our fault. How do I know? I search, first, the right things to watch, and then investigate, on field if necessary. No need to go that far to know. Some people know, a lot. FBI, journalists, civilians. What do you think? Because you sadly live you peaceful life it's ok? Peace and love you don't know. Well I do. Maybe peace and love isn't possible, but it's at least, a beginning of answer. It's a position that is out of interest, and power, that contributes to the welfare of a handful, and more for all of us.
Of course they didn't establish a democracy. There wasn't, and it's not with oppression that there will be one, it doesn't work like that. Democracy seems to work on lies, but forcing people "readily" no. And I'm saying that, but i'm not even close to an anarchist. People aren't honest and disciplined enough for it.
As for oil, yeah, and it's really short minded, because oil is disappearing like the rain forest. It's to say how little it is. It's just for them, precisely, and now. Nothing more. And we should count on them, to make things better? It's clear it's not the order of the day then. So when I hear Obama criticized like he is, or Clinton (whom I like, by the way, wrong cigar?), I want to say, people, you're so manipulated and blind. THANKS.



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Yes, I'm liberal, very it seems, as I consider lives higher than... anything?

If a system doesn't work, then change? I wish. That system has good and bad sides. it could be better, sure. Humans, make it wrong. 

Yeah, I blame lots of you for accepting things so easily, and not thinking by yourself, and not read, watch, "other" things, and search and... etc  We're ALL paying it in the end.

I do believe we're sent "magic powder" in the eyes, like the magic bullet.

No, no need to kill me, not now, I keep no evidence of nothing. But I know you know of people who can "delete" someone like me. For nothing. What is that craclking noise in my lamp? ha ha. Some people know of that already.

NO. Whatever your opinion, side, or whatever word, I will respect you, just be consistant, think, make it yours because it's you. Then, I'll believe in you. And others might. And not only because you have a one million campain (oops, I said to much?).

Yes, I do believe a life is a life, and priceless. Mine is worth more (to me).

Yes, we were talking about Iraq. And how ago it's been, and not only "Junior". Junior is a dumb, roasted by... several things, I don't wanna see his brain. Others around have been more dangerous. "Junior"'s senior was more dangerous by himself.

No, I'm not American. But everybody is watching towards you, so here's the news we all have.  I don't know why, really, out of some series. They should rather watch China, and Asia. Maybe it's about "Islamists" countries. Well, Islamists is not integrists, and did you know there'e christians there too? Not that I care. Religion is just another problem more. But who cares. Kill'em all!

As an intellectual, so to speak, it's annoying.

As a human being, it's unbearable.

And I don't live there, any "there". What makes these civilians, with another religion, but after all, they're not all criminals, like everywhere, worse? Why do they have to die more? Like that?

You don't care so much when it's about women being treated like shit, raped, lapidated, girls not going to school, orphans, no medical care, no equality. When it's about oil and profit, wow, suddenly, a human conscience is rising. Magic!

Yes! I vote! But not for you. I vote against you.

I'm gonna post that evrywhere. In case, sure. But more, whether I'm still here or not, the more, the better, for us, humans.

And it took me at least five minutes to find it, because I had to, well, type all the lyrics there were in the trailer.

 

I guess it tells everything. It's gonna be a fucking game.


 

I just saw him in Lie to me. I mean, he's older, and I just saw his right-side, but it's him.
Then, I saw his name. I knew, it was him. And it's often like that for me. However, I often don't remember the names, watching TV. Just the faces.

Now, when I see someone, opposite street, that I've been seeing for years, huh, very, very few chances i'm wrong. Fair enough. Now, you, tell me the truth. Oh, but you won't, you're the stealth man, the elegant way from your colleagues to call you a coward?

I will always have issues with injustice, will always be shocked by inhumanity, will always be touched by true generosity. This I promise.

I got up earlier tonight because I was thirsty, and I put the radio on my phone, just the time to drink something. I started listening to that audio documentary. I know there were montage stuff, train noises, the wagons of hell. I don't know how I could picture some testimonies to nausea.

Less than two hours to decide of the orchestration of the biggest murder of all time. Some are fascinated by the intelligence and strategy. I find it terrifying, to think that one intelligent educated man, could be able to make come true, in cold blood, the worse thing humans are capable of. The idea of an insane man, to reality. Be careful with your ideas, because they become what you are, and sometimes, can kill others.

You can still learn more by reading, on the net. But it will be nothing like hearing, that way. When I close my eyes, it's like I can see them. Not like in movies. It's yellow of sweat.


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as people do, in the spirit of facebooking every damn event in our lives, posting absolutely everything......i shall now contribute an important (think about it, it is) matter of my life.....

at approximately 8:36 this morning, i visited my bathroom. i used my left hand to open the door, then tripped over a shoe(a metaphore for life, shoe-erly). then i proceded to life the toilet seat, un-do my belt, unfastened pants, peeled down one's knickerbockers, and hovered over the bog to release my cargo (to avoid splashing). i made a conscious effort to not push too hard as i am always aware of potential brain aneurysm. i used nearly half a roll of toilet paper (unscented, i can do that myself) and then ended at around 9:45 by of course flushing, washing my hands and tipping the butler for his help getting my pants up. all there is now to do is pop down to the hardware store for another new plunger!. happy days. :D"

I italicized it for you.

I don't work tomorrow. I shoudl have, but classes cancelled. I prefer to go to work regurlarly, even when it's just some hours. But, well, I'm enjoying my evening.

And, listening to many things, and La compagnie créole, and when I say that to my friends, they laugh at me. Currently listening to ça fait rire les oiseaux (that makes laugh the birds). I don't have many good things from my presumed father, and even the good things aren't enough compared with the rest, but when I see good, even in a monster, I take. I kept three things from him, brush my teeth well (and never went to the dentist out of for a control), not to be racist, as he wasn't, even being a psychopath, and some music from the isles. And yah, I enjoy that. It's festive, and travelling a little.

How a psychopath can love music so much, then, huh, eww, another story? Not one that I really know of.

I'm weird. I'm mostly at my desk, and the curtains are shut on that part of the living room, for privacy. But when I move in my apartment, going to the kitchen, I have that other window, that I leave free, open, often. And it's quiet in the evening, and at night. Sometimes I see a lonely one, walking through the square. And i wonder. Who are they. Are they really lonely, out of that moment of loneliness. Where are they going to. Who are they, really. Just passing by like that. I wonder. And I feel sort of guilty to enjoy loneliness so much. And more, when I don't enjoy it, in spite of my choice. There are lots of people. But so few human beings.

 

I studied it at school, for a while, several years. But when I got out of school, I met "him", and had to speak with him just for random stuff, and realized I didn't really speak the language. I knew the irregular verbs, and the grammar, but not all. And very, very little vocabulary.

It's only years after, as speaking English was one of my early goals, that I started to understand how, I could reach it. And after going back to college, I knew what I needed.

I read, a lot, books, but also people, random people, speaking the language, as natives. And music, sure. And, I have mostly learnt watching the x files, without subtitles, of course, how do you wanna learn otherwise? It was something I liked to watch, and watching a series is better to learn than a movie. You have the same people, talking their own way, with their own diction. In the beginning I understood like one word out of twenty. It's Gillian Anderson I understood the better, because she's got a very good diction. And her accent was American then, but not as much as Duchovny, or Carter, whom I mostly didn't understand. Watching and hearing helps too, you see the real situation. That plus, reading, plus communicating, I don't know, it came by itself.

I took a test, in 09, that said I was a level 3,5/5. Not bad, but never enough. I took a test, some months ago, an Oxford stuff, I was 6,5/8. Better, still, not enough. The thing is I've never been to a native English speaking country more than three days. It's too short to learn. But they had told me that after the first test. And I've progressed. Whatever.

Now, as for an accent. lol American, some from BC, English, still some French, especially when emotional or tired. I guess it's folk. But even when talking "normally", I think there's a mix of English and American, that must sound weird. The thing is, I'm really more attracted to the UK than the US. And when talking with Mulder, who's got a northern English accent, terrible accent, I'm catching it, not to the point of saying ploog, instead of plug, but still, more and more English. But who knows. That's what I like, the possibilities : )

I had to talk to her more. I can understand a little more why so disorganized at times. She's afraid to even talk to her parents about what she wants to do then. Afraid being soft here. She asked me. I told her that for now, a general wing is short for her. It's not what she wants to do anyway.

She sent me a message, saying she had a 9/20 in physics. Well her average in science is 5/20, with a 3/20 at math... It's not great, but it's better. I told her we'll have to see what she didn't understand, because, huh, the worse is, I believe she really tries to learn her lessons. She thinks she's dumb then. She's not. I won't tell you what she told me, but well, under the circumstances, I wouldn't have better marks.

So, I'll help her, after class. What else? I'm no social worker. But I can do that.

She would be ten or so, I would call a social worker, she asked me not to, she's not ten. Still, underage though. I don't know. It's not easy.

 


J'ai pas d'papa, j'ai pas d'maman, moi j'trouve ça dégueulasse
explique Bertrand au surveillant du dortoir de la DASS
pis les autres enfants m'ont dit que bah normalement ils en ont

Ah bah ouais mais bon

Putain c'est chiant, tourneur fraiseur, le travail à la chaîne
explique Bertrand à son professeur de CPPN
Je vais pas passer ma vie à bosser pour pas un rond

Ah bah ouais mais bon

La semaine prochaine, y'a un luthier qui me prend en formation
explique Bertrand au psy de l'armée du centre de sélection
Avec ce métier j'ai découvert une passion

Ah bah ouais mais bon

Si je roule trop vite c'est que j'ai cinq heures pour faire Paris Béziers
explique au policier en train de verbaliser
si vous me prenez le camion, qu'est-ce que je vais dire au patron ?

Ah bah ouais mais bon

Je vous en prie laissez moi le temps j'viens d'me faire licencié
explique Bertrand à son banquier conseiller financier
si vous r'fusez mon chèque, ils vont me virer de ma maison

Ah bah ouais mais bon

Putain, Bertrand t'es chiant, Bertrand t'es plus comme avant
explique l'épouse de Bertrand à Bertrand zappant sur le divan
tu passes tout ton temps devant la télévision

Ah bah ouais mais bon

C'est vrai que j'bois mais je frappe pas mes gosses quand même j'ai une âme
explique Bertrand tout en tremblant à l'avocat de sa femme
et c'est pas mon chômage qui va couvrir la boisson... pension !

Ah bah ouais mais bon

Je suis en fin d'droits, j'ai plus d'pognon j'attends le RMI
explique Bertrand au vieux chignon qui dit : C'est pas ici
Vouv vous foutez de ma gueule à chaque fois c'est ce qu'on me répond

Ah bah ouais mais bon

J'ai pas fait une seule pièce même pas un p'tit ticket resto
explique Bertrand station Barbès aux rambos du métro
il fait moins dix dehors et puis je suis fragile des poumons

Et bah, vas sous les ponts

Et arrêtez les infirmières avec vos sales piqûres
explique Bertrand dans le samu qui roule à vive allure
pin pon pin pon pin pon pin pon pin pon pin pon pin pon

Ah bah ouais mais touuuu...

Ah bah ouais mais bon

 


Un petit lapin qui s'appelait Poupine
Avait rendez-vous avec sa Poupinette
Ses parents n' voulaient pas qu'elle devienne sa copine
Parce qu'en fait, Poupinette, c'était une belette !

Thierry le chasseur est comme tous les chasseurs, il est con...
...tent d'aller chasser,
Il aime les fleurs, connaît la forêt par coeur, il est con...
...centré sur son gibier

Poupine le lapin papouille l'arrière train de Poupinette qui s'écrie :
"Oh vas-y fais moi mal !"
Ca réveille Bernadette, Bernadette la vieille chouette
Qui bondit, une belette, un lapin c'est pas normal

Thierry le chasseur n'est pas un gros bourrin puisqu'il est con...
...forme à la tradition.
Si il écrase les fleurs c'est a cause de son tout-terrain puisqu'il est con...
...ducteur attention

Petit lapin derrière toi
C'est toute la forêt qui commence à s'ébranler
Prévenu par la chouette, voila le papa
De ta Poupinette qui vient te coller une branlée.

Thierry le chasseur a eu une grosse hallu puisqh'il est con...
...vaincu d'avoir vu
Une belette coller un pain à un tout petit lapin, il est con...
...trarié d'avoir pas pu

Sortir son fusil pour s' payer une grosse boucherie puisqu'il est con...
...voqué au commando
Spécial de son parti pour aller j'ter des oeufs pourris sur les con...
...gressistes écolos !