My aunt sent me a message. She's got some problems. Don't wanna give more details. But I'm sure it's my fault, because she helped me. And now, it becomes her problem. I proposed to be of help, but i'm not sure of what I can do.
But it's the same each time. For Mulder. He's been a good friend, honestly, not perfect, but doing his best. And I'm so, on my own. I'm sure it's my fault.
If my mother died, it's my fault too. People tell me it's not, but what do they know? My mother deprived herself from eating, or ate a little and always the same, for i could have everything. More share, and things wouldn't have been that way.
I don't ask more than to share. Why people feel they have to sacrifice? Maybe it's why I do the same now.
And if my real father doesn't want of me, it's because i'm not good enough.
I want to give in tonight, let my darker fantasies happen. I can't cry. But I can bleed.
Previous PostsJust going to the dumpters, posted May 23rd, 2013
Scully, Stella (Gibson), and me... thinking..., posted May 23rd, 2013
Disappointed with her, and learning from my mistakes here, posted May 22nd, 2013
Arts change me, friends say so - I say, arts reveal me, posted May 21st, 2013
psychopaths, emotions, thinking, intuition, perceiving, posted May 21st, 2013
Mulder and the cat, posted May 21st, 2013
(My) Mulder is funny, posted May 21st, 2013
I wondered if my neighbor didn't put ecstasy in my glass (Gillian Anderson - Never After) Priceless ;), posted May 20th, 2013
An interesting break, posted May 18th, 2013
The BEPC (end of middle school exam) is coming fast - change of strategy for one of my students, posted May 16th, 2013
Another by Noa for Notre dame de Paris - Vivre (live), posted May 8th, 2013
My choices of Ave Maria - Barbara Hendricks (Schubert) - Jessye Norman (Gounod), pump up the volume for that one - Noa (The pagan Ave Maria - Notre dame de Paris), posted May 8th, 2013
One (last) politics POV - these 3 posts are, of course, very summed up (basically speaking), posted May 3rd, 2013
One post more, same conversation (me still only) - no need to add details here, like previously, I think you got it, well should, and people really reading get it, I'm sure (politics, opinions, typos!, posted May 3rd, 2013
Post (me only) between friends (circle here), and then you'd know why I don't accept anyone, because i want real things, or try it, posted May 3rd, 2013
And if you wondered about the music on The fall trailer (because I did), it's there, posted May 3rd, 2013
AFTER Bleak House (that I haven't finished), AFTER Great expectations (that I haven't seen), and AFTER David Duchovny never will be The signalman, at last, I really wanna see that, sneak in, posted May 3rd, 2013, 1 comment
Moe Brocks!, posted April 21st, 2013
This I promise, posted April 16th, 2013
Wilhelm Stuckart the nazi lawyer - trouble going back to sleep, posted April 16th, 2013
X files vids - some fun, some not, and don't forget Scully rocks, and kicks ***, posted April 15th, 2013, 1 comment
True story!!! *lol*, posted April 15th, 2013
Listening to La compagnie Créole, late at night, posted April 10th, 2013
When I see a human being crossing the square at night, posted April 7th, 2013
Xf - IWTB bloopers - Poor Amanda *sniffs*, posted April 7th, 2013
I must have a really weird accent when speaking English, posted April 5th, 2013
My "special" student, posted April 5th, 2013
Les Wriggles - humor, caustic humor, and fun, and embarrassing truths - Ah bah ouais mais bon and Poupine et Thierry, posted April 5th, 2013
K's Choice - Quiet little place (Cocoon Crash), posted April 5th, 2013
Ok, trying to learn. - GA is a cuckoo, posted April 5th, 2013
I think I could like that one - BBC The Fall - Interview with GA - When will I be able to hack it? :D, posted April 5th, 2013
I don't have meningitis!, posted April 1st, 2013
Fredericks - Goldman - Jones - Né en 17 à Leindenstadt, posted March 24th, 2013
Away from "people" for a while, in that craziness they call soiree, posted March 22nd, 2013
I realize..., posted March 22nd, 2013
My job is bliss. Oh, wait, maybe it's ignorance that is bliss?, posted March 22nd, 2013
Adaptable... but only for the best., posted March 20th, 2013
it's easy to fall in love with her (very short story, but I don't wanna call it, posted March 20th, 2013
Reading an x file and annoyed 4 - read all, posted March 16th, 2013, 2 comments
Reading an x file and annoyed 3, posted March 16th, 2013, 3 comments
Reading an x files and annoyed 2, posted March 16th, 2013
Reading an x file... And... annoyed..., posted March 16th, 2013
I'm not easily shocked, but..., posted March 15th, 2013
Ultimate full version - Venus - Beautiful days, posted March 15th, 2013
I'm losing popularity at the speed of light, posted March 12th, 2013
Dream section: experiment one, so to speak, posted March 12th, 2013
Ending up watching first ep "Sherlock", posted March 9th, 2013
At the beginning of the first ep of, posted March 9th, 2013
I exploded my credit card - shopping just for the pleasure, posted March 9th, 2013
Posted that already - Jillian Jensen - x factor, posted March 8th, 2013
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